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Saturday, May 12, 2001
Guy #1 sent me some lovely flowers. What a sweetheart. I'm very grateful to him for his patience...posted by Erica at 5:16 PM
Thursday, May 10, 2001
Oh my God! What is love anyway?I understand better now why people in long-term relationships feel the need to analyze the concept of love. I never understood it, though I tried, as I was the official single girl that would absorb the miseries and problems of my friends.
They would ask: What is love? What is it supposed to feel like? How do I know this is it?
There have been books and books written on the topic. It's wonderful, it's horrible. It's heaven, it's hell. Who really knows.
What I have with Guy #1 is by no means long-term yet. Of course not - it's only been a month and a half - he's not even my official boyfriend yet. But already I need answers to the questions in my heart. Answers that can't be answered so simply. My sister says Relax, just sit back and enjoy it. And I am... but sometimes I can't help but let my mind wander to the future.
posted by Erica at 1:17 AM
How well does anyone ever know anyone? I've known Guy #1 for a month and a half now, and I still feel like we're not as close as maybe I should be to someone I could potentially care for.
posted by Erica at 12:47 AM
My sister is borrowing my slinky skirt and hoe boots for when she goes partying this Friday. She was smiling in surprise and delight at her reflection in the mirror, and said "This is so not me!"
I responded, "Of course it's not you. It's me."
My skirt. My boots. I told her that guys tend to be more intimidated of you when you look more sexy than your average chick at a club. That's my theory anyway.
posted by Erica at 12:40 AM
Wednesday, May 09, 2001
Y'know, I haven't heard from Guy #2. I don't have his number here in town where he's working, but I do have him on my ICQ list. Since I'm back on dial-up for now, I don't really go on ICQ so much anymore, but when I do go on, I don't see him online.I guess it's all for the better.
I was reading the June Cosmo. They had mini reviews on summer movies coming out. There's a love triangle in the movie Pearl Harbor and they say "...imagine the thrill of having Ben and Josh fighting for your affections."
I don't have to really imagine, I remember the thrill of having Guy #1 and Guy #2 both interested in me. And it was fun, but there was definetely a down side to it. I hated picking between them. For the week while I waiting for my date with Guy #2 and seeing Guy #1 at the same time, I was sorta nervous and stressed about it. I liked both, and didn't want to say "no" to either. Who wants to reject a cute boy? Not me.
In the end, I think things turned out okay. The part of me that wants to think "But what if..." is small.
posted by Erica at 2:29 AM
Today it rained.
At dinner my friend and I were seated next to a window looking at grey buildings. Just by looking at them I could smell the wet concrete. There were these trees lining the alley, and they had new leaves. The rain just emphasized the incredible green colour of these leaves. It was really beautiful.
I spoke to Guy #1 tonight. The routine is that he'll call my cell. Then I'll call his cell (it's a local number) with my land line, then with his land line he'll call me back and I'll hear the beep indicating "call waiting." That way, he can use his long-distance plan to call me late at night without waking my parents. I never thought I'd be doing this sort of thing...
Have I mentioned how much I love his gentleness?
posted by Erica at 2:20 AM
Tuesday, May 08, 2001
I let him talk to my id, and it turns out they don't speak the same language.posted by Erica at 1:17 PM
Yeah so he likes me - I knew this already. But the idea still fills me with giddiness.
posted by Erica at 3:52 AM
Don't worry my readers... I haven't slept with Guy #1. I mean, I've slept with him, but we haven't had sex yet.
Guy #1 has a good head on his shoulders and he's sensible about stuff like that. Me, I have years of Christian values instilled in me. I'm not the type that would jump into something like sex without consequence.
posted by Erica at 2:50 AM
He called me up last minute for ice cream. How could I resist?
I could hear the loud music coming from his car as he drove up to my house. I realized why when I walked out... he was driving with the top down on his car.
I'm not usually impressed by cars, but this time I was... I grinned as I climbed in. We blasted Everything But The Girl into the night. Driving in the parking lot we set car alarms off!
Warm starry nights and late runs for ice cream - this is why I love the summer time.
posted by Erica at 2:36 AM
Sunday, May 06, 2001
I love the city. I love the buildings, I love the glass, I love the windows. I love the lights that come from those many, many windows at night. I love the diversity of the people. The city is beautiful. One day I will live downtown.posted by Erica at 1:27 AM
My sister met Guy #1 for the first time today.
"He's so nice. I like him. He's better than all the other guys you've ever been with... You're cute together. You can tell he likes you."
Big beaming smile from me.
He wore a suit today when we went out for dinner. I love it. He did it because he knows I have a fascination with guys in suits. He looked so good!
posted by Erica at 1:25 AM
