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Saturday, September 22, 2001
Okay, it's okay. After much talk with girlfriends, I feel better.I'm putting some power back in my court. We're going out to dinner and I requested to go somewhere nice. I'm dressing up in my slinkiest skirt and barest shoes. His eyes will pop out of his head - at least they should.
posted by Erica at 6:36 PM
I am a weak, weak person.
posted by Erica at 11:24 AM
Actually probably a lot of what I'm feeling has to do with my PMS. So yeah, I hope that I will wake up tomorow feeling better.
posted by Erica at 2:01 AM
I have no one to blame but myself.
Everyone wants to be my older brother/sister protecting me from this thing with Mr. Fob. But really, despite his bad habits he's made of just the same material as every other guy out there. Soft and squishy on the inside.
It's not his fault I feel this way.
posted by Erica at 2:00 AM
I'm so so angry at myself right now. God why am I so stupid?? I'm so angry right now I just want to lash out at everyone. I want to lash out at Mr. Fob. I'm feeling so vulnerable right now. God I'm so stupid.
I'm already getting itchy feet. I want to break Mr. Fob's heart for no reason. I feel like I want to run.
I'm starting to realize that I am a better person when I am single.
God this term just started and I've already f*cked up.
I always feel like shit after nights like this.
I just think that I was built for being on my own.
posted by Erica at 1:57 AM
Friday, September 21, 2001
Everyone is sorta iffy about Mr. Fob. They like him in general, but they're sorta apprehensive about me dating him. They seem to think he's too much of a bad boy for me.But really, I think I have him wrapped around my little pinky. Yes he is a bit of a bad boy, but not with respect to his relationship to me. I can tell that he's devoted and he's already showing his softer side to me. And even a bit of his vulnerability.
posted by Erica at 7:13 PM
I'm gonna be a spoiled little brat soon. Mr. Fob drives me everywhere I used to walk to.
posted by Erica at 3:21 PM
Thursday, September 20, 2001
Me and Mr. Fob hooked up last night.I'll have to come up with a better nickname for him. :)
I'll also have to fill you in on the details later... gotta go...
posted by Erica at 9:07 AM
Wednesday, September 19, 2001
Attraction + Interest - Differences = ???Yes I know he thinks I'm cute. And I know he's interested... as am I, of course. But I know that we both know we are very different people. So what does that mean?
Ah well. Will find out soon enough I guess.
posted by Erica at 2:45 PM
Hmm.... confusion. Sometimes Mr. Fob is on and off. I have some clues though.
posted by Erica at 7:54 AM
Tuesday, September 18, 2001
Hmmm.... coffee date is approaching. Wow I really don't know what I'm doing. I'm just being honest. I know what everyone thinks of me. I know that people worry about me getting my heart involved in everything more than I should. That being said, I don't care and I am aware of my downfalls and I am aware of the risks... but yeesh... aren't I allowed to get excited about coffee? It's not like I'm marrying him or something.posted by Erica at 9:30 PM
Mmmm... I'm getting all daydreamy.
Coffee with Mr. Fob tonight. I love it. I'm so content with this...
He's so cute... what makes him even more appealing is the fact that he's so unique, I know that I for one find him so attractive, though he is definetely not the traditional kind of attractive that most girls like.
I just can't believe I'm doing this again.
posted by Erica at 6:09 PM
Oh yeah, by the way, Guy #2 is history... he doesn't even register. Totally unpenetrable.
posted by Erica at 1:28 AM
So yeah.... uh... I don't know what I'm doing.
This thing with Mr. Fob is a lot of fun - but I couldn't tell you what will come out of this. A lot of flirting for sure... anything past that, I'm just trying to let it flow.
He's so skinny... and a nice height. I never notice him looking at me, like looking me in the eye. Which is a difference between him and Guy #2.... Guy #2 always looked me right in the eye when we spoke, while Mr. Fob seems to be all over the place, but unafraid of paying me compliments.
So this is different for me.
He told me to call him after I finished my assignment... so that would be now...
posted by Erica at 1:28 AM
Sunday, September 16, 2001
So cute... he's all I want to talk about. And he's tall...posted by Erica at 10:23 PM
I'm quite excited actually... He's really cute. He's my type... sorta fobby, with geeky-on-purpose glasses and spiky hair, strong sense of style. I love it. He's so cool. And so laid back - which also means that he's next to impossible to read. Still not as hard to read as Guy #2 anyway. I think I've given up on Guy #2.
Anyway, he's sorta aloof sometimes, but other time makes some isolated flirty gestures... like he'll say something about some singer being hot, and then he'd say "... but not as hot as Erica." Then I'll laugh at him. Or he'll steal a baloon from some decorations somewhere and give it to me. A sweetie...
So we'll see.
posted by Erica at 10:22 PM
Things might actually be happening in this life right now. I just have to test the waters and make sure... Who knows, right?
posted by Erica at 10:14 PM
