I think that out of habit I still check guys out and I'll still have my stupid crushes, but really, deep down, I don't want to hook up again. KGuy really messed me up and it will be sorta hard to trust someone again.

Last night this perfectly nice guy introduced himself and we started talking a little, but I panicked at the first lag in the conversation and bailed out by saying "Nice meeting you." and stepping away. I feel bad now, cause he probably felt a little rejected after that. I wish I could go back and do that one over.
6:39 AM

Went partying tonight... blah. Just okay. Met some pretty nice guys in the line while we were waiting to get in. Doesn't help that I was sick, coughing and sniffling with my voice like Joan Rivers.
3:14 AM

Thursday, January 03, 2002

Once I did get used to it, it was amazing. The pace is so damn fast there.... certain places are crowded at all times of the day. Always so damn busy... Skyscrapers fill every space, but there are some areas of beautiful greenery. The weather was comparable to early fall in Canada... I returned home to snow.

I felt like I stuck out like a big cow... but I tried to blend in. I bought a chic pair of these red-brown flat boots and skirts. That was my best impresson of a Hong Kong chick. The girls there are so lady-like... I felt so clumsy and hickish next to them. I guess I'm too down to earth to have been born in HK.

I got used to the pace there. I got used to the crowds. I got used to shoving my way onto the MTR (subway) and keeping my arm rested over my bag to ward off pick-pockets that my Mom kept warning me about.

I started getting more comfortable with the language too. I'm determined to improve my Cantonese now.

I'm so tired now though. I'm sick (came down with something New Years) and jetlagged... I just can't believe I'm already back at school...
1:52 AM

Wednesday, January 02, 2002