We all went to see "Amelie" which is an adorable, gorgeous movie. Really cute. And he appreciated it!

Afterwards, just the two of us went to Plantation for coffee and dessert. He's a really nice guy, definitely not another KGuy.

And he kissed me good-night...
11:42 PM

I can't wait to see the boy that thinks I have a wicked personality. :)
12:26 PM

Okay, there's sorta a lot going on right now... and it's getting a little complicated...

Guy #1 just ICQed me saying that he was going to call me within the hour. Perhaps he just received my postcard from Hong Kong...

But I'm getting this vibe that maybe he's checking me again... Did I tell you I saw him the night before I left for HK? He had called, and I invited him out to the bar where we were having drinks with a group of people. I don't know...

I feel like Guy #1 deserves so much better than me. Especially because of KGuy. I slept with KGuy. I let the biggest jerk I've ever dated be the one to take my virginity. Things have changed a little since I was with Guy #1.

Same thing for W. W is so pure, he definetely deserves a really nice, really pure Christian girl.

Maybe you think I'm being too hard on myself. That I'm trying to make myself live up to some unrealistic ideal. But really, I don't even think I live up to my own expectations. I give in to my id way too often.

That guy did end up calling me around 10:30. I invited him out to watch this movie tomorow that was already going to be seeing with all my friends.

Apparently he told the friend I met him through, who told P who told me, that I have a "wicked personality." Wow. That's a great compliment. He got that from our 1/2 hour phone conversation yesterday?

Hmm... I guess I'm going to have to make up a nickname for him. How's RGuy? Okay, from this point onward, I'll refer to him as RGuy.
12:33 AM

Wednesday, January 09, 2002

I'm certainly not spectacular looking. Maybe I'm cute, and under the right circumstances (make-up, light, dress) I can be pretty cute, but I'm not stunning. Someone like my sister is stunning. Not me. I don't have the natural, exotic beauty that P has. I don't have the blond, model looks of H.

Maybe it's because I'm short and nonintimidating. Maybe it's because I smile so much when I dance.

I don't know.
9:31 PM

Okay, so that guy I met Monday night called me yesterday. And he was supposed to call me again today to go out tonight - he said he'd call around late afternoon.

And yeah, guess what? No call.
8:55 PM

Tuesday, January 08, 2002

Honey and hot water is my mom's thing for sore throat.

And I continue to use this remedy to this day. I know it doesn't cure sore throat, but it's certainly soothing. I think I've even gotten my friends into the habit of drinking it for their own sore throats.

My earliest memory of this is when I was a little girl. I remember sitting in my family room in front of the TV sipping hot water and honey from a cup that had a blue plastic lid and plastic straw. There were cartoon bunnies on the cup. Perhaps they were in spacesuits, I don't remember.

I don't know why, but this particular image sticks out in my head. It's just comforting, remembering my mom taking care of me like that.
6:54 PM

I can't stop thinking about Hong Kong. I really loved it there. I was talking to this guy last night who I know but not really, and I found out that he spends a lot of time in HK because his parents are there, and he's CBC like me. I was telling him how I would go there for the whole summer if I could find an English speaking job, and he said it wasn't hard - it's just hard to find one that pays well, with the exception of teaching English.

Hmm.... teaching English in Hong Kong? I could do that! It's a thought.
1:52 PM

Last night we went out - it was a really, really good night.

Saw lots of friends, met lots of people :).

Hey I think my temporary scratchy voice is kinda cool! The girls kinda teased me saying that I sounded like a sexy Joan Rivers. But I find that I'm not so shy anymore, and the voice kinda helped - I don't know how.

I made the rounds and talked, laughed, joked with friends - everyone but Si. I waved at him but I very consciously didn't try to have a conversation with him.

Met a friend of a friend. It was his birthday after midnight. And the minute we were introduced he coudln't stop talking to me! I don't know if it was the alcohol that he had consumed or if he had some sort of sudden attraction to me... I've seen him before too, around campus or whatever, but this was the first time we were introduced.

Anyway, he asked me out, and I said yes. This was very cool.

But half of myself was yelling at the other half, saying What the hell are you doing? and You don't know what you're doing! Do I actually want to start something again?? Well, it's just a movie. We'll see.

Apparently he's a very nice guy... and he's a friend of a friend, so it can't be all that bad.

More on last night later...
7:56 AM

Sunday, January 06, 2002

G is one of my favourite people. He did something to really piss me off before I left for Hong Kong and I didn't want to see him. But by now my anger has really faded. He didn't know I was angry but when he found out he sent me an ICQ message and said sorry. I haven't really talked to him about it yet, but it just makes my heart melt because I could never picture him ever apologizing for anything. And he did it so readily for me. A reason why I love him is because he's so loyal. I know that he'd show up for my birthday no matter what (unlike Si, who I inxplicably can't let go).

Anyway, I just need to remember that there are people out there that care about me (sometimes it still surprises me).
3:43 PM

Okay so here's exactly what happened Thursday night.

I was sitting down in a chair to the side of the dance floor. A guy came up to me and asked if he could get his coat which happened to be on the chair I was sitting on. I helped him get out this coat from behind me but it turned out to not be his. He walked to the other side of my chair and reached for a different one, I turned to him and smiled, asking "Found it?" and when he nodded I just went back to watching the people on the dance floor.

He paused and then went on to introduce himself as T. I introduced myself back and we started talking a little, we found out that we knew some people in common. The minute there was a lag in the conversation, I smiled and said "It was nice meeting you." and then turned away and went to stand with my friends.

I guess I panicked a little! He was perfectly nice and now I think he probably thinks I rejected him. I'm dwelling on this because I feel a little bad.

I'm also wondering what my motivations were. I wasn't expecting a hook up that night, and I don't even know if I want to meet someone new yet. I don't know if that's because of what happened with KGuy or some other reason.

Anyway, perhaps to try to amend things, next time I see those guys we knew in common, I'll mention to them that I met T and to say hi to him for me.
3:31 PM

I'm living off lemons, honey and hot water this weekend. It's for my throat.

Si called P's line (she went home for the weekend) and I answered it so I could take a message for her. He was gonna come over and visit her but I told him she wasn't here. He kinda awkwardly asked if I wanted him to visit me and I said sure. He said he would call before coming over. Well through a series of weird excuses later he didn't end up coming over and apologized and just went home.

Okay, whatever.

It's time to really give up on being good friends with him.
10:39 AM