I'm at home now. Feels weird. I can't believe I have a whole week off. I already miss my second home.

RGuy might be in town later this week. He'll let me know. I don't really know what his plan is - will he have time to see me?
10:42 PM

Friday, February 15, 2002

It's my reading week next week. I'm all done... now that I'm done classes I honestly don't know what to do with myself! (What do you mean I don't have to study?)

It should be a good week. :)

I'll be going home tomorow, getting a ride with P. I'm glad... I really feel like it. But I honestly don't know what I'll do with all my time. Hmm... shopping.
4:04 PM

I think I had a classic Valentine's day night. :)

It was my first.

Got a single, long-stemmed red rose. Got a bear. Got a nice dinner...

I didn't mess up my cookies for him.

RGuy is showing more affection - just little things like putting his hand around my waist. But he definitely doesn't over do it. I'm not his trophy... and I like it.
9:03 AM

Thursday, February 14, 2002

Ack! It's the dreaded V-day!

Reservations are for 7:00. I just know it's somewhere nice that a friend of RGuy's recommended to him. And RGuy has never been there himself.

So yeah, I think I'm gonna wear my skinny jean skirt that goes to about mid-calf with a turtleneck sweater and my HK little boots. Then when we go out partying afterwards I'll change the turtleneck for a really cool tube top I have. That's the plan...

I'll start baking his cookies in an hour or two... not sure how I'm gonna package them... I have no wrapping paper, so I'll have to improvise.
12:51 PM

Wednesday, February 13, 2002

That can pass as my V-Day's gift to RGuy, right? I mean, he is buying me dinner.

Hopefully they'll be a no-brainer to make - but then knowing me and my penchant for making dumb-ass mistakes in the kitchen...
4:05 PM

Wow I just got off the phone with RGuy - we talked for an hour - our longest conversation yet :).
12:43 AM

Tuesday, February 12, 2002

Why am I so adolescent?

Okay... I must calm down.
10:43 PM

Relationships are hard work. I sorta see the benefits of being single.

I mean, I always have to worry... is he gonna call me? Should I call him? Do I call him too much? What is he thinking? Will this last? Am I supposed to get him something for Valentine's day? When will I see him next?
7:20 PM

That's really horrible what happened to Sale and Pelletier. They're such an adorable couple. I wish I had seen their skate, but I was actually doing work (!).
3:01 PM

Wow the Canadian male speed skaters have great outfits. They look like spidermen.
12:47 AM

He's making dinner reservations for Thursday - the dreaded V-day.

This is my first holiday ever spent with another guy - like a boyfriend. It's a first - I've always been single for holidays - birthdays, Christmas, New Years...

So yeah, I feel kinda funny about it. When he brought it up, I was almost speechless. I didn't know what to say, except "Oh..."

I'm pleased, of course, but I also feel sorta lame because I was always so against V-day before.

Well I hope he takes me somewhere cool! And I just hope this Valentine's doesn't turn out to be cheesy.
12:18 AM

Monday, February 11, 2002

It's one of those situations where no one is wrong. Without hearing the phone conversation over again as it really happened, as opposed to how we both remember it, who knows who's right.

So he dropped by my apartment to get the video, he couldn't stay cause he left his car idling. We placed no blame, and we exchanged a quick conversation in the lobby, and then he kissed me quickly good-bye.
6:29 PM

Okay. We were supposed to meet on campus today so that I could give him back the video we rented on Thursday that he forgot at my place, that's not due til midnight tonight.

I went... and waited. And waited. A minute into my next class I was still waiting, and I decided if he hadn't shown by then he must've forgotten.

I'm sorta ticked. Not just because he left me waiting, but also because I had meant to go to the library all afternoon, but since the video is due tonight and the only way he can reach me is by calling my number at residence, I went home.

There couldn't have been a misunderstanding. There was emphasis on the time and place when we talked about this last night.

He better have a good excuse.

But I'm gonna try to not be mad. Because in the past I've been overly sensitive about getting stood up. I hate it. And I've thrown out opportunities because of this. And because I'm trying my hardest to not screw this one up, I'm gonna try to not be mad.
1:10 PM

"Butterflies" by Michael Jackson - gooood song.
12:44 AM

It was good to see my Dad this weekend. My Dad is the calmest person in this family (I'd like to think I'm the 2nd most calm). My mom and my sister are crazy - and they drive me crazy! So it was good to have everyone together.

I love my parents. As much as they can drive me up the wall... I love them. Then there's my sister. She's got two sides to her when it comes to me. One side is always putting me down, making fun of my driving (which she hasn't seen) or my cooking (which she hasn't tried) or my eyebrows, my clothes... nothing is off limits for her to insult. The other side of her will apologize for not being able to spend more time with me. Then I'm the bad guy when I don't respond to that.

It wasn't a great weekend, aside from seeing my Dad. I lost an earring, I lost the gloves that W gave me, and I dragged myself downtown to get a journal article only to find that the findings were statistically insignificant (I should really read the abstracts first before going out of my way to get the article).

But it was all made better when I got back to school. I called RGuy and just talking to him made me feel better.
12:21 AM

Sunday, February 10, 2002