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Friday, October 04, 2002
Looks like my weekend is gonna be very blah...Yay. Studying.
3:51 PM
Hey me and RGuy are growing together... With experience comes intimacy.
It's scary, it's crazy...
It's been 8 months.
And I don't know if I know what I'm doing.
But it's been a good ride.
I still have such a crush on one of his friends. It's just electric. Ack... I'm horrible.
But maybe that will never change about me. I've always been boy-crazy - not a surprise to most of you probably.
We're close. We know each other. He cares about me. He treats me like a goddess. Will anyone love me like the way he loves me?
2:41 AM
Thursday, October 03, 2002
"So what do I smell like?""What do you mean?"
"Compare me to something! I've always wanted to know what I smell like!"
"I dunno... you smell good!"
"Like what???"
"Uh, I dunno. Uh... I can smell your shampoo on you!"
"So I smell like Pantene?"
"Just your hair smells like Pantene. But you, you smell good..."
"C'mon... you can't think of one thing to compare me to?"
"Um... you smell.... girly."
*Satisfied*
1:16 AM
I was studying at the library tonight. And it's interesting how social it can be there. I always bump into people there.
I saw Tim, my secret-ex-boyfriend/family-friend. We're so comfortable with each other now. Genuine smiles and maybe even a little bit of flirting... just an eensy bit. Ah, don't worry, I got RGuy, and Tim has this really sweet girlfriend. I think they've been together since high school - a while now. Anyway, I gave him my number here, and told him to visit me in my apartment sometime. His girlfriend lives close to me.
I also saw KGuy. But from behind. He probably didn't see me at all. His back was to me, but I could recognize him. His gait, his posture, glasses, his style. Yeah that was him alright. No biggie.
Anyway, saw friends and foes... and I even did a little bit of studying tonight. :P
12:58 AM
Tuesday, October 01, 2002
We don't even make out anymore! We kiss, we make love.... but making out is something we left behind.Things are fun though. He stops by the apartment occasionally. Like a cameo in our sit-com world. Erica's boyfriend - good for comic relief :).
I'm so busy with school. Even though it stresses me, I thrive on it somewhat. Always moving, always busy...
11:50 PM
Monday, September 30, 2002
My sister firmly sides with RGuy whenever we talk about him. Not that I'm not on his side, but she defends him and reminds me of his good qualities. Namely, the fact that he's crazy about me. He treats me good. He's so into me.And I understand that.
It is, in fact, his love that keeps me here.
Everytime I think of running away, every time I worry, every time I get itchy feet... I think about how he feels about me. And then I decide to stay. Because I feel safe in his love.
2:37 PM
Sunday, September 29, 2002
It's weird to be home... I feel like I'm floating. Like a magnet missing it's other half. Even though home is the big city, it just feels like the middle of nowhere. How sad is it that I think that I belong at school? But in the city, I just feel displaced.9:57 PM
