I want to write poetry again.
9:53 AM

I have 9.5 hours before I get slaughtered in a midterm exam.

I called RGuy and he's feeling a bit blue. So I tried to provide the comfort that he showed me earlier when I was the one that was stressed.

I'm at the acceptance stage now. I'm past the "despair" stage and the "hopeless" stage. I studied my best and I'm gonna try to get a good amount of sleep.

This is life, right?

Studying long hours lends itself to daydreaming, drifting and philosophizing about one's life.

I accept that I have my quirks. And I know that I'm not perfect. And that I have certain shortcomings. But the more secure I get in who I am, the more I can make of myself. People appreciate differences more than we realize.

Anyways, off to bed now...
1:08 AM

Oh God my big big crush from second year just walked me home from the library.

Hehe...

He's so cute!

Oh it's all in fun. =)

Getting walked home from the library is great...

Oh don't worry, I'm calling RGuy right now to chat for a bit, my heart is still faithful!
12:09 AM

Thursday, October 17, 2002

He told me that I should visit home more often. That mom is lonely and that my sister goes out almost every night so my mom is alone in the house. That I should call her more too.

I also got the usual lecture on the importance of going to professional school. That I should go to Pharmacy school if I get in. But of course, no pressure!! It's my life.

I also got the gentle reminder that he would probably work in Hong Kong for the rest of his life. That retirement was 10 to 15 years away. That his industry was booming over there and dying over here. That I should consider working in Hong Kong too. But I reminded him that I love Canada, and I want to live and work in Canada. That Asia was a nice place to visit, but...

All in all, I'm glad we talked. I miss my dad.
11:52 AM

I was so stressed last night. I called RGuy. And I couldn't help sounding so sad. And when he asked about it and I started talking about my school woes, I started crying.

And he made me feel so much better.

And he made me smile, and he made me laugh.

I appreciate him.

(I may even love him.)
9:16 AM

Wednesday, October 16, 2002

This month could not be over quicker.
11:42 PM

Tuesday, October 15, 2002

When me and my sister are home, she feeds us soup too. We have to drink it. She makes it herself.

So when me and RGuy were home, she did the same thing. RGuy was essentially her 2nd child for the day. Heheh...

He's like part of the family now. He was good about it too. Didn't even complain.
8:57 AM

Monday, October 14, 2002

It was a good trip. There was a mixture of tears and laughter. How does that happen? Lot's of stuff happened. We'll leave it at that for now.
2:30 PM