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Saturday, December 14, 2002
I never have the same kind of fun with girls that I have with boys. I wonder if it's because of the flirt factor?11:05 PM
I'm so tired. One exam to go, 3 more left. I'm afraid this term will be more brutal than I thought.
Must value my sleep more....
Good night...
12:13 AM
Thursday, December 12, 2002
I love boys. I know I'm boy crazy, but sometimes I think I enjoy the company of boys better than girls. Even just as friends.It's not exactly like I'm "one of the guys," cause I'm a real girly girl.
I think they're funnier and less superficial and less judgemental.
11:56 PM
Wednesday, December 11, 2002
I love this. Especially the one with the boy sitting on the planet watching the star. :) It reminds me that it's Christmas time, and not just final exam time.(I saw the link here first).
12:39 AM
Tuesday, December 10, 2002
Is it possible to use someone for love?I am settled and comfortable again... for the moment. I see how much he loves me. I love the way he makes me feel about myself. He lets me b!tch and cry on the phone to him when I'm sad and moody. And he loves me anyway.
All my statements are one sided however. How to remedy this? Is this a selfish relationship on my half? Because it's all about me?
I want to protect him. I want him to be happy. I want him to have what I have. But I don't know if I love him.
9:43 AM
My head is just buzzing with information. I spent a good amount of time at the library today. It was very productive... it's crazy. I can't even start thinking of Christmas yet - not until finals are done anyway....
12:40 AM
Sunday, December 08, 2002
I didn't get to talk to RGuy about all that stuff I was supposed to. The first thing I did when I saw him was I ran up to him and gave him a big hug.... the kind where I jump up and cling to him with my whole body.He told me that he had a dream. That I was in it. Basically, in the dream, I was cheating on him with another guy. And he and him were both trying to win me over. And that he had called me in his dream to go out with him, and I had said "I can't, I'm already out with that guy." And he said that he had woken up sad.
Maybe it was just in my head, but my face flushed when he was telling me that. Especially given the way I've been thinking lately. So of course I couldn't tell him about all my confusion about our relationship and love. All I could do was comfort him and say "Aw poor baby."
I swear to God I don't make this stuff up. It just happens to me.
2:35 PM
