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Wednesday, January 21, 2004
I realize to my own horror that I have become dependent on RGuy. I thought that I didn't miss him while I was away, but now that I am back and I still have not been able to see him yet, I really do miss him.I am finaly allowing myself to consider the idea of getting married to him. Afterall, it has been 2 years, the thought had to cross my mind eventually. We never talk about the future because he knows better than to freak me out.
When I think about it, part of me feels that maybe I am settling. But the the other part of me thinks that not getting married would mean losing this gift that I have been given of someone who I get along with so well.
I guess it's something to think about. I guess this is real life.
4:22 PM
