Y'know, even just the thought of ending things with RGuy is exhausting. Not that I'm getting itchy feet (again) or anything, I was just thinking about the way it would be.

Relationships are freakin' investments.

Let's just say that we were to break up. Then I'd be single, and I guess, get into another relationship. Just the thought of that is exhausting. To have to start over?

I think maybe I'd rather stay single.

You have to go through the whole process of getting to know eachother.

First superficially... the names, the occupation, the family, the birthday, the favourite colour.

Then more deeply. What are they like in the morning? How silly does this person get? What does he find funny or sad? What is he passionate about? What makes him laugh? How ambitious is he?

Then you go through the experiences. The first time he sees me cry. The first time we have sex. The first time we have really good sex. The first time it doesn't end up being so good. The first time we argue. The first time he sees me crumble under my family's influence. The first time he sees me humiliated.

Even if things were not perfect with RGuy... at least I've gone through all these things with him before. We've been there. It's an investment.
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